Third Eye Realm

(Mysti helped me so give her credit!! GO mysti )

Mom

Even though you’re not around you still mean the world to me.

You’re always on my mind.

Thinking about you is good, but also bad.

I love remembering that I still have you but hate remembering that it’s only in my heart.

You’ll always be the one that gave me my first breath but sometimes I wish you hadn’t.

You hurt me more that you know but its weird cuz I never want to let you know.

Loving you is easy but forgiving you is harder than anyone will ever know.

I will always have you in my heart but you will not be by my side.

While alone I hold u close and dear to my heart.

Where u seem to reside.

Though my anger and tears r hard to hold in.

I have to find a way to release the blood that bleeds from a broken heart.

So tonight I sit alone searching through what I can’t forgive in hopes to heal

When I walk I turn to see u neither beside nor behind me.

But when the memories come they bring the rain from within.

Which is where I seem to hold u.

Why was I given breath to only lose u in return...

This pain I wish I didn’t have to bear...

But even with the hurt thank you for being my mom...

(doesnt have a title, anyone think of one let me know)

Don’t want you for the weekend,

Don’t want you for the day,

Don’t need a love divided,

Don’t want to feel this way…

See that I want you to need me (the way I need you)

Just like I need you (the way that I see you)

And I want you to see me,

Like no one has before

So can’t you see I’m tortured?

Why can’t you hear my pain?

Can’t you see my love is divided?

I don’t want to feel this way!

Why won’t you love me?

I thought that you did?

Why don’t you care?

I’m always there,

Oh can’t you feel my torture

Why can’t you feel my pain?

Why can’t you see my love’s divided?

I don’t want to feel this way....

Our love is eternal.

This love is bliss.

I want the divine touch of my goddesses kiss.

Her beauty is heavenly.

Her voice that of an angels harp.

Then she speaks to me.

I'm so lost in her words.

So I forget what she said.

Silly me I payed to much attention to her lips moving. ...

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl

It feeds on loneliness and creates a void

Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture

A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here

The little one has thrown in the towel today

Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul

It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman

In this girl, this child where hollows have bred

A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes

And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,

Leaving nothing considered worthy remains

Destined to walk through life less ordinary

Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

I died a death but stayed alive

In phantom's likeness I survive

Alive, yet dead, I walk alone

In rooms with walls as cold as stone

I lived a life and dreamed a dream

And loved the life you lived with me

Then in the whisper of a breath

You left, and then I died a death

Though dead I live, I cannot part

From love that lives within my heart

Within my sorrow I must strive

To keep my hope and faith alive

For all the love that I would give

I surely would prefer to live

To be content, not to survive

But feel my spirit come alive

You slowly took your final breath

'Twas me, my dear, who died a death

Awesome poems love

This is the end of all hope.

To lose what reminence of happiness I have left.

This is the birth of emptyness.

The growth of despair.

Taking ruite inside me.

Why can't it just let me be?

Whitness my downfall.

Then again I never stood that tall.

For once I wish to dream a dream.

A dream I might hope to be true.

But I have only nightmares.

Because deep down I know nobnody cares.

But why am I laughing?

For some reason I'm crying.

Its all because inside I'm dying.

Dying for someone to care.

But this is a pain you force me to bare.

You could take it all away, make it all better.

But you choose not to.

You watch me break.

Then what little I have you take.

I am your friend in the day.

I am your dreams in the dark.

I am the thread that holds you together when you feel like falling apart.

I am your every pleasure wrapped in a world of fun.

Yet you are my warm glowing sun.

So many people yet to you I run.

Aim for the target.

Shoot for the goal.

Capture his heart.

Then steal his soul.

For every action there is a reaction.

For every question there is an answer.

So answer me this, grant my every wish.

Obey me and it will all become clear what you hate yet whom you fear.

Riddle me a rhyme, tell me a tale.

Like how in like you always fall and fail.

( hmy: oooh angry poem rofl)

Ive got no friends, family or loved ones

Not even myself

So just get lost and leave me be on a shelf

I already knew that Life was rough

But Im tired of it all, Ive had enough

I am Anger

I am Spite

I am Hate

I am Rage

Im the Legendary Beast and Im locked in a cage

Bangin on the walls shoutin Primal calls

Waitin on the World of Man to fall

Darkness becomes me

Darkness befriends me

Lights an Illusion, Hope an intrusion

But Darkness you see, it sets you Free

To pull at the Chains that bind your Will

And sets Souls free by makin Heart be still

Betrayal is the only constant in my Life

All the people lyin and causing me Strife

I got better things to do with my sorry ass Life

Like, sittin here making Angry rhymes

And droppin dimes on all the things wrong with the Times

I dont care if anyone finds the Truth in these lines

Im Dead inside, so no more cryin

Natures Little Sadist is back and now shes Darker than Black

So many friends and family

Yet I'm so lonely and alone

No one to reach out and talk to

All by myself left to condone

How did I let this happen again?

Why didn't I see it from a mile away?

How could I allow the trap to be set?

Knowing my past and foolish ways

I guess what he said is the truth

And I am completely truly insane

Just look at the foolish choices I've made

I just can't help not to refrain

I'm attracted to conflict and sickly to the pain

When will the violence stop; how will I finally end the disdain

Measly all I ask for is one simple day

Just one day where my life is not in complete disarray

I sugarcoat my troubles and most of all my despair

Dwelling in my own misery; not willing or able to share

So here I sit in solitude trying to work my troubles out

Conversing with my thought process; always a second doubt

It's hard to get good advice from an unstable mind

Not knowing if I'm right or wrong; fearful of what I'll find

How can I maintain this relationship when only one will communicate?

Finding it harder not to take the easy way out;

Although the thought is becoming one of my traits

I don't feel I'm evil, though maybe I've been wrong all along

I do want to be normal, but I first need to become strong

So here I sit in solitude with this pen and paper in hand,

listening to my voices..

They've now become my new best-friend and always understand